Lay It All Down AGAIN.
Traveling the country on a word from the Lord with no guaranteed income is vulnerable. Trusting that I hear His voice and taking steps accordingly when it doesn’t look logical to the world is vulnerable. Living in the homes of people I barely know is vulnerable. Stepping into unpleasant circumstances because God wants to address heart issues is vulnerable. Staying on my face before the Lord in the midst of the unknown is vulnerable. Physically battling travelers fatigue is vulnerable. And processing my feelings on paper for others to read in the midst of it feels the most vulnerable of all.
2021
Something powerful happens when we take time to share our personal experiences of how we have encountered God. The enemy HATES when we testify of what God has done in our lives. ‘Testimony’ in Hebrew literally translates to 'do it again with the same power and authority'. It’s an act of worship to testify of the goodness of God in our lives and share the ways that we’ve seen Him move!
“Holidays Are Hard.”
It was hard to talk about, especially during the holiday season. I didn’t feel like I had much to celebrate or contribute. I’d find myself at holiday gatherings crying in the bathroom, grieving over the devastation of my life. It was usually triggered by something simple like watching other couples smile and laugh, enjoying their meal together, or watching one of their kids climb up into a parents lap. I didn’t want to ruin other people’s joyous time by talking to anyone about my pain. Instead, I’d quietly excuse myself to the restroom and fall apart.